For the first couple months of her life, LM was The Baby That Wanted To Be Held All The Time. Seriously. There were days when Tim would get home from work in the evening, and I had literally done nothing all day except hold her, with the exception of a couple of bathroom breaks (during which she screamed). When that is your life, you are just living in the moment and it's hard to imagine things will ever be different. You just think, "Okay, this is my life now, I hold my baby all day, it's my new purpose." And slowly, as you come to accept your new role in life as a baby nest, she changes. For us, it was when LM hit 3 months.
Suddenly she was so much easier to take care of! She would be entertained by staring at toys near her while I set her down to make lunch. She could go longer than 2 hours between nursings. Her babbling vocabulary increased. She's definitely a morning girl, full of smiles and stories when she first wakes - makes it a little less painful to have to be up before 7am. Every. Single. Day.
I've been back at work for a little over a month, I'm working 3 days per week which is working out well (although I'm envious of all the mothers in pretty much every country besides the US that get a year of maternity leave while still having their job guaranteed at the end!). We have a nanny who watches baby while I'm at work. I'm getting used to being a baby mama...
The old me would make spontaneous trips to Nordstrom Rack or H&M after work to check out the latest fashion bargains...the new me makes a beeline for the bus stop after work, and fumes when the bus is 5 minutes late.
The old me would stop by the grocery store on the way home from work in the evening, then spend the next couple hours preparing dinner, surfing the web, and flipping through magazines...the new me gets home after work as quickly as possible and cuddles baby, goes for a walk with baby, bathes baby, nurses baby, reads to baby, rocks baby to sleep, then heats up Trader Joe's frozen breaded chicken cutlets for dinner, and promptly collapses in bed.
The old me would stay up late into the wee hours in the evening sewing because I wanted to wear something new to a party or event...the new me is in bed early (LM wakes to nurse between 1am and 3am and then is up for the day between 6am and 7am) and no longer cares if I repeat an outfit several times within a week.
So this is my new normal, and I wouldn't change a thing.
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